I used to think that people online did not connect with me cos they have a bad impression of me after seeing me somewhere. This sort of made sense cos foreigners do try to connect with me, so it cant be the horrible pics themselves that are stopping the locals.
And in my effort to expand my social circle, i reached out to someone whom i see regularly but with whom i have never made any contact. His reply?
He doesn’t know who i am.
Sometimes, i am just not sure what to do. But that i guess is due to me not really knowing what i want. Some days, i want to just disappear without a trace. Others, i want to be integrally connected in a social web. Based on experience, the former seems more realistic. Alas, i get depressed without social contact. Blame that on me being a social animal. Damn my humanity!
That aside, a fren was sorta depressed and spoke to me on the phone. The loneliness was getting to him. One particular issue he mentioned was how a fren of his just came out just 6 months ago and was already attached, yet he who was putting himself out there was not taken.
Hmmm, i wonder if i shd complain too. After all, it has only been 9 yrs plus without a second date, let alone a relationship.
Moving on, i shall fantasise about those things that have no purpose whatsoever in the bigger scheme of things, like the Damier Graphite series, the sleek Prada document carrier and the Tagheuer watch. Viva la consumerism!