Update: Andrew Teng played a remix of this song last night at Play!! Soo impressed.
I find the song Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy haunting. The raspy voice, the almost monotone, make it so heart-wrenching for me (yes, yes, very drma).
Don’t hang up, can’t we talk
So confused it’s like I’m lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don’t pretend you don’t know
This is me I’m unchangableWhen did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it’s only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful[Verse 2]
I’ve been told what’s done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that’s true
I’m stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I’m only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we’re much better altogether[Chorus] x2
… Made me unbeautiful
Of course, that isnt the only reason. As you are well aware, i am single but that is only in reality. In my fantasies and daydeams, i frequently date and get attached and have adventures and have fights and breakups and date someone new etc. In my most recent episode, a "down-to-earth" guy dates me and all goes well till he suddenly stops all contact with me. So i wonder just what happened. Hence, i was pleasantly surprised by the way "Was it something that i said/Was it something that i did" in the song, which was exactly what i was thinking of asking that guy.
Yes, yes, i know nothing of what i just said makes sense. It is all illogical. But you must understand that i am a very sad pathetic creature who is in constant depression mode. Forgive me thus.
In other news …. something shitty. I mean, literally (stop reading if you want to).
For about 8 days, i had sorta diarrhoea. For the 1st 2 days, it was like 6 times daily. Then for the next 6 days, it wasnt so bad but it was all free-flowing waterfall. When i finally saw some soliddish shit, you have no idea how relieved (pun intended) i was.
So, i thought it was colorectal cancer (damn smoking!) or an effect of the weight loss pills(!). Hmm, maybe my body was rejecting the idea of my losing weight. I am meant to be a chub after all.
An end to another one of my efforts to lose weight. And now i have got this bottle of pills. Something tells me i just might start taking them again cos cant waste money mah. Worry not, if the Niagara starts cascading again, will be sure to stop.